I sit here writing this as my son, who just puked 2 minutes ago, runs around…dances with…jumps on…and slaps his sister. For the past 24 hours he has struggled keeping food and liquids down. Every time he eats…it reappears within a few minutes. He has what seems to be a simple stomach bug. The problem is when he is not throwing up…he acts like any other normal little boy. From outward appearances there is absolutely nothing wrong with him….but inside something is not right.
It reminds me a lot of the typical churchgoer. On the outside, we look fine. In fact, others can look at us at times and see what seems to be a perfect life. But the reality is something much different. Many of us live with a parasite. A parasite that eats away at us slowly but surely. We may look fine on the outside…but eventually…the effects of the parasite will manifest itself. For some of us the parasite is guilt. For others it is hurt. For others yet…it is some other form of brokenness.
Here is what happens. We live with our brokenness deep inside. We don’t show it to others and we certainly don’t talk about it. We just let it eat us up inside. We may not think that our parasite is causing any harm…but the reality is that your brokenness is keeping you from growing with God. In the same way that what my son eats will be rejected by his body…your brokenness rejects the spiritual food that you ingest throughout the week.
Yesterday at The Grove we discussed how we can “START OVER with Better Relationships”. Jesus seems quite clear that our relationships with others influences (and maybe dictates) our relationship with Him.
“You have heard that it was said to the people long ago, ‘Do not murder, and anyone who murders will be subject to judgment.’ But I tell you that anyone who is angry with his brotherwill be subject to judgment. Again, anyone who says to his brother, ‘Raca,’ is answerable to the Sanhedrin. But anyone who says, ‘You fool!’ will be in danger of the fire of hell. “Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift.
We know that broken relationships negatively impact our relationship with God…but what about the other forms of brokenness that we carry with us wherever we go? What about yours?